I AM PARCHED

Well...I sit here and through tears try to put my thoughts and feelings on paper....I am in a place where I do not even know what I feel or want anymore. Things are definately out of mine and Jason's realm of control and although it helps us learn to release and allow the Lord to work, it doesnt make it any easier. I am reminded of a story that I have used so many times when I have done a communion meditation or taught youth in the past. I find it very applicable to how I feel now. When my niece, Jillian was about a year old I was babysitting her and she wanted some juice. Being the brain that I am, I poured orange juice in a bottle...you moms know that the pulp may make it difficult for her to drink through the nipple. (i just wrote nipple...feels wierd:)) Anyways, I gave her the bottle and after about 30 minutes there was just as much juice in the bottle as there was when I first gave it to her...and yet she was sucking her little heart out...suddenly a light went on and I realized...the pulp plugged the hole...she cant get any out....so I attempted to take the bottle out of her little hands so that I could get all the pulp out and she would not release that bottle. She was screaming and looking at me like why the heck are you trying to take my bottle...I just kept saying, Jillian...I want to make it so that you can get juice out...just trust me, I will bring this bottle back to you and you will actually be able to get the juice out. I then mumbled, what the heck, I am just trying to help you and give you more...at that point the Lord ministered to me how I am just like Jillian. I have my bottles that I hold so tightly to. I think right now its my bottle of having children, living near my family, and my husband having an amazing job that he loves. Jesus tries to take my bottle to to make it better and I hold onto it with a hard grip screaming cause I want my bottle so bad. The Lord looks at me and says, Surrender. I know what you need and I know what you desire, but you have to relinquish your pre-conceived notions of what that is going to look like and trust me that I will take care of you....Here I am acting like a 1 year old screaming for my bottle, when if I would just release, I would see all that the Lord has intended for Jason and I.

Everytime Jason and I talk about our current state he tells me that he thinks we are in the desert....kinda like Israel went through, and thus the reason why I AM PARCHED! I need to press more into my Jesus...we are on earth for HIS purposes and not our own...because of that, Jesus...here is my bottle!

Oh the joy of waiting and being patient!

so sorry for the delay. (Kristal) :) I just assume nobody reads this. I havent written since I started the blog so I should probably update this bad boy. I just feel like a Debbie Downer and who wants to hear from her??? So, Jason and I did not get the job we were really hoping and praying for. It is hard because I am trying to have a mentality and heart that is "here am I send me" but I just feel tired and disappointed. I know that God knows what He is doing, that is my hope and my encouragement that I am holding onto. Where ever we end up should be good...there has been a lot of prayer that has gone into it! Even if it is not in California with my family and my becky, I will go with a heart of anticipation for all the God wants to do in and through Jason and I. Other then the waiting game, life is good. Work is busy-thank you Iphone! Jason is amazing! I serve a BIG and amazing God! I will keep you readers posted as soon as I know anything....

Customer service can be enlightening

So, I work at ATT and I must say that it is the best job I have ever had. I love the people that I work with, for the most part the customers, and the pay isnt too shabby either. I am very thankful for God using Melissa to get me this job. It has been nothing short of a blessing. Although, I love my job, there is an aspect of it that I hate that has been kind of an eye opener to me. As I talk to Jason and my mom about it they both said I am naive and I am sure that you too will agree. People are selfish by nature. I know that I can be selfish, but I am shocked to see the selfishness that is out there. I will go the extra mile for my customers. I will come in on my days off, answer their call whether or not I am at work, I will sit on hold with cust service to fight on their behalf, and I will get them the best deals possible. I thought for sure if I am doing all of this for my customers they will surely be loyal and appreciative...think again! It has been a harsh reality because I want to believe that all people are good and loyal and want others best intrest over theirs...this is not the case:( so to all of you out there that are appreciating others and putting them before yourselves, keep it up! This yucky way of life is going to continue until we all take a good look at our lives and change...it all starts with us...

Im a sucker, I gave in!

So my good friend Kristal has been blogging for awhile. She would always ask me if I read her blog that day, and feeling like a horrible friend I would say no. My secret is, I had no idea what blogging was or how to even get on to read her blog...Now my husband, Jason, has been blogging for a few months now so I feel completely out of the loop seeing all the blogs out there. So, my blogging journey begins...

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